Time, it's always moving forward. I've spent a good part of my life looking back towards the past, wishing there were things that I could change. I spent so much time looking back, that I missed things that were right in front of me. So many chances I didn't take, so many choices I made wrong and in the end, I ended up looking back on them too, wishing I could have done things different. Lately, I've been stuck in a rut, with nearly all of my attention focused on what has already happened and I realized that I can't do that anymore. If I keep looking back, I'm going to keep missing what's right in front of me and I especially don't want to do that now.
A good friend whom I shall refer to as “kitty brat” has been helping me turn my life around slowly. I'm taking each thing one day at a time, sometimes it's one week or even one month at a time, but I'm making progress. I've even been trying to lose weight! It's a slow process to, but I know I'll get there eventually.
With all the changes in my life recently, moving recently has had the biggest effect on me. Until I can figure out a way to support myself, I'm more or less stuck here. I've been moping around since moving, feeling depressed that I was so far from the area I knew and what few people I still talked to. Recently though, I decided that instead of moping about it like I have been, I'm going to try to make the best of it. I still have my health, I still have good friends, and I still have family that loves me.
Here's hoping for many more years of being around and talking to each and every one of you.
Peace,
Nerdy
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